The nearly 100-page notebook of the 28-year-old woman who murdered three adults and three children at the Covenant Christian school in Nashville, Tennessee, was released by The Tennessee Star on Tuesday.
The journal provides an insight into the thoughts of a person who claims to be autistic and who experiences preoccupation and depression. Left-wing theories regarding transgenderism, such as the notion that kids will commit suicide if they cannot get gender surgery, and white privilege were the shooter’s two main sources of inspiration.
The journal entries described how the gunman’s “autistic brain” battled with various concepts, such as “white privilege.” One month prior to the shooting, on February 7, 2023, the gunman drew a graphic with the words “brain -> white privilege -> embarrassment of self.”
The gunman expressed her desire for inter-racial sex in writings.
The FBI claimed that it was retaining the journal in the interest of public safety, but nothing in the over 100-page journal seemed to support that allegation.
The FBI claimed the manifesto could not be made public because it “was a blueprint on total destruction, and it was so, so detailed at the level of what she had planned,” Nashville City Council member Courtney Johnson told The New York Post. If that paper fell into the wrong hands, the danger factor would be enormous.
It is probable that such material was in another diary because a police inventory lists two journals on the shooter’s desk, one under her desk, and seven under her bed. However, although appearing to be the most recent, this journal lacks any specific details regarding breaking into a school or carrying out a shooting.
Michael Patrick Leahy, the chief editor of The Tennessee Star, filed a lawsuit under the Tennessee Public Records Act to get the writings released. Judge I’Aesea Myles of Nashville said the journals were copyrighted and prevented the distribution of even a single page. Leahy was also threatened with contempt of court by her.
Leahy said that he published the diary because it was in the public interest and that he had legally obtained it outside of the Public Records Act.
“These documents and photos have helped us inform the public about the underlying reasons for this heinous attack, and have helped drive the public discussion of what should be done to prevent such acts of violence in the future,” Leahy said. “We have documented a massive failure of the mental health system as a root cause of Hale’s reprehensible actions.”
The gunman appeared to be echoing left-wing talking points regarding gender in his vehement writings about American politics.
“’Land of the Free’ means, whatever [explicit] is taking away human rights is not of a human at all,” she wrote. “I wish death upon myself cause of the pure hatred of my female gender. With no rights, anyone’s country is a shitty dictatorship.”
She made a chart using the CRT buzzword “deconstruction,” pairing it with “reconstruction.”
People with autism are particularly prone to accepting the notion that their bodies are incorrect from birth. “My autism -> a male brain?” the gunman wrote.
“Mom just says I’m young and young people make mistakes. but with me, it’s painfully more than that. with being autistic and waste time all the time,” the shooter wrote.
“The torchure [sic] of being raised a girl, and actually believed I just had to deal with it, and tried to be feminine. But that didn’t last long after high school ended + no longer had to fear of being called a [explicit]. It was only until my early 20s I finally found the answer-that changing one’s gender is possible. But oh [explicit] no, not w/ my mother. What she believes, how she grew up conservatively and that LGBTQ-especially transgender in her era was an enigma, nearly non-existent,” she added.
The gunman allegedly repeated the notion that kids will kill themselves if their parents don’t give them the chance to transition into a different gender.
“How could they not ever think of their own child suffering, and that they hate their gender so bad they cut + want to kill themselves first, and their preference of conservative religion-gay [explicit] makes them believe that their child they’re given should stay that way.”
The individual often known as P.A.P. or the “brown girl” in the journal received a message from the shooter minutes before the shooting, radio personality Paige Patton revealed to ABC News following the event.
“I’m planning to die today. This is not a joke. You will probably hear about me on the news after I die,” it said. When Patton contacted the police, they promised to send someone to go into the screenshots.
It was after the shooting that police arrived.
